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Post by Star Night on Aug 12, 2010 23:22:46 GMT -5
Chris realized he wasn't hilucinating and stared blankly at her, his jaw opened just a bit. Afer a few moments of complete silence, Michael nudged Chris a few times and Chris shook his head and saw she was holding his jacket out. He quickly grabbed it and looked away muttering, "Thanks." He felt so awkward, shy, embarassed, and lost all at the same time with her standing so close to him. He swallowed hard and concentrated on Michael. They can send little messages to eachother telepathically. He was saying, Can we go now? Mike glanced at him and said, No! back to him. Chris was still looking at the floor. He wanted to grab Maria and hug her and kiss her and never let go. But he couldn't bring himself to even look up from the floor.
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Post by Maria Goldsten on Aug 12, 2010 23:34:55 GMT -5
Maria looked back up at him. She had a choking feeling in her throat, and suddenly she couldn't handle it anymore. Without thinking she rushed into him, wrapping her arms around him and putting her forehead on his shoulder, her heart heavy. She knew he probably wanted her to get off, but she couldn't. She wouldn't let go of him this time.
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Post by Star Night on Aug 12, 2010 23:46:34 GMT -5
Chris felt her wamrth flodd over his and realized she was wrapped around him, and it didn't seem like she planned to let go any time soon. He slowly put one arm around her not realizing he was doing it. Then, a tear rolled off his cheek, he wrapped his other arm around her and burried his head in her soft, beautiful blonde hair. "I'll leave you guys alone." Michael said smiling. Every time Chris blinked, another tear drop rolled down the side of his face, so he just kept his eyes shut, not wanting to move ever again.
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Post by Maria Goldsten on Aug 12, 2010 23:56:00 GMT -5
Maria's heart picked up the pieces and glued itself back together. Don't EVER leave me again. She whispered, more into his warm neck other than his ear.
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Post by Star Night on Aug 13, 2010 0:04:11 GMT -5
Chris's heart raced with mixed feelings. "I'm sorry." His voice was barely loud enough or clear anough for her to hear and understand. "But I just can't bare to hurt you, that's why i left." He told, still unsure whether to stay with her, or not have anything to do with her again. He would never forgive himself if anything happened to her because of him. Never.
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Post by Maria Goldsten on Aug 24, 2010 20:52:16 GMT -5
Maria slid her arms down from his back to his hands, intertwining her fingers with his. She closed her eyes, enjoying the moment because she knew from experience that it could end without her knowing it.
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Post by Star Night on Aug 24, 2010 22:15:32 GMT -5
"You know i didn't want to leave." Chris continued when she didn't say anything. "I just wanted to protect you. I--" He sighed. "I stilll don't know if i can..." He couldn't find the words to finish the sentence. He didn't need to anyway.
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Post by Maria Goldsten on Aug 29, 2010 14:37:56 GMT -5
Maria ignored him. Anything he said really didn't matter to her anymore, as long as she was in his arms.
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Post by Star Night on Aug 29, 2010 15:53:19 GMT -5
Chris didn't want to let go, but he knew he had to. He pulled back and looked at her in her eyes. "I still don't know if I can be with you." He choked out, each words more painful than the last. "I can't hurt you. I wouldn't be able to live with myself."
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Post by Maria Goldsten on Aug 31, 2010 19:34:57 GMT -5
Maria opened her eyes wide, lifting her head from his shoulder and staring at him in disbelief. What?. She asked in a whisper almost inaudible.
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Post by Star Night on Aug 31, 2010 22:06:55 GMT -5
"You can't get hurt because of me. I won't let it happen." The words were spilling out of him now. "We were almost killed that night because i was being too foolish! You almost died because of me! You have no idea what kind of guilt i've been living with since then!" He was raising his voice now and suddenly wished they were somewhere that was less public and he couldn't stop his tears now. "I literaly wouldn't be able to live if something happened to you! I'd probably kill myself if it was because of me!" He took a few deep breaths. Looking at her with eyes filled with every emotion possible. He looked down shaking his head. "Maybe..." He was desperatley searching for words. "Maybe it's just i couldn't live with the guilt." He paused. "Or maybe it's just because i love you..." He swallowed hard, staring at the floor taking in short, scratchy breaths. He decided he's said enough.
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Post by Maria Goldsten on Sept 4, 2010 21:22:01 GMT -5
Maria couldn't find words to speak. You.... You love me? Her voice was barely a whisper as she spoke to him. She completely forgot everything else he had said to her, and she felt like she was floating on air.
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Post by Star Night on Sept 4, 2010 21:35:07 GMT -5
Chris stood there for a moment, letting his gaze wander around in her beautiful eyes. He couldn't find his voice, so he swallowed very hard and blinked as a few more tears flowed down his wet cheeks. Then, slowly, and just barley noticably, he nodded. "Yes." He said so quietly he didn't know if she had heard him. Finding new energy within him he was able to find a small voice. "Yes. I love you. i love you so much. I love you so much i'm willing to be away from you to make sure your safe. You deserve better than me. In fact no guy deserves someone like you." He paused. Looking down at the floor he continued. "But i hope you find someone who treats you perfectly and is safe for you to be with." he let out a sigh filled with sadness. He choked back a few more tears. He felt like if he cried anymore, his eyes would dry up and fall out.
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Post by Maria Goldsten on Sept 4, 2010 21:52:32 GMT -5
Maria stared at him, not sure what to think. If she didn't have him, then she had no reason to live anymore. But she knew he didn't want her anymore... It was all just a little something to get her off his back. She looked down, tears sliding down her cheeks. Her grip on him loosened, and her arms lipped to her sides. She took a step back, looking up at him one last time. Goodbye, Chris.... She used all her strength to turn around, wiping tears out of her eyes as she walked out of the dorms and to her car, getting in and driving away.
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Post by Star Night on Sept 4, 2010 22:00:53 GMT -5
Chris watched her go, unable to find the words to stop her or move to grab her and pull her into his arms. Had he done the right thing? Just then Mike walked in and speed walked up to Chris. "What did you do?!" He exclaimed. "You just let her go? I thought you were in love, dude!" He slapped his brother, seeing the look in his eyes told him he knew he made the wrong choice. "Go after her!" Chris didn't need to be told twice. He looked at his brother, gave him a big hug, and said "Thanks, man. I owe you big time." He sprinted out the door and he was gone.
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