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Post by Christian Lavigne on Sept 13, 2010 19:25:24 GMT -5
Christian watched her with a worried and unsure gaze as she led him away. He sat down next to her, wishing he would have had the guts to sitting a little bit closer. But he didn't. It felt like he didn't know her anymore, like nothing would ever be the same between them. But there was still a possibility. She wanted to give him a chance. And from tonight on, he was going to show her what he can be for her. He would make her realize how much more she needed him than she thought she did. He wouldn't walk away without a fight, and any fight was worth this prize.
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Post by Star Night on Sept 13, 2010 19:46:23 GMT -5
Star was suprised he gave up so easily on trying to get her to talk. She knew she promised to give him a chance, but all she could think about was Andrew. Let's just get tonight over with. She just wanted to go back to her dorm and lie down in her bed for the rest of her life. She sighed staring off into space with a sad, but thoughtful expression on her face. The last conversation she had with Andrew, when he dumped her, kept running through her mind over and over and over again. Why couldn't he just belive me? She thought desperatley and realized just in time to keep the tears from coming out. she closed her eys for a long moment and lowered her head until she was staring at the floor once again. It seemed to be her favorite thing lately.
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Post by Christian Lavigne on Sept 13, 2010 19:57:50 GMT -5
Christian looked at her, wishing she would say something first, but realizing he would have to. Star... I know it's really awkward between us now and everything... But there's more to me than you think... And I know Andrew doesn't deserve you- the things he's done I mean. And I know... You know, that you love me. Maybe not as much as I love you, but there's room to grow... And I know- if you give me a chance- that you won't ever miss him again, because you know that you're with someone that won't ever hurt you, whether its because that someone lost control of himself, or left your for another girl, or just broke your heart. And you and I both know that that someone is me.
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Post by Star Night on Sept 13, 2010 20:15:16 GMT -5
Star looked up at him when he finished talking. She gave a smile so small she didn't know if he saw that it was there. She swallowed away more tears. She needed to hear that, or atleast something like that from him to let her know they were still as close. She couldn't find her voice at the moment, so she schooched over and hugged him. It was awkward hug for because it was mostly fake. She loved that fact that she could still talk to him the way she used to, but the things he said weren't all true, but she needed him to think that they were, or at least that she believed they were. She buried her head into his shoudler and held on tight with her eyes shut tight.
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Post by Christian Lavigne on Sept 13, 2010 20:22:35 GMT -5
Christian closed his eyes, loving the feeling of her arms around him again. A soft smile played across his face, and he lifted his arms to wrap around her, tangling his hand in her hair and holding her against him. I missed you... So much... He confessed, sure it was obvious but needing to get it out.
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Post by Star Night on Sept 13, 2010 20:49:39 GMT -5
Quickly sniffling, she mumbled "I missed you too." through his shoulder. She did miss him, but she wished he and Andrew got along. Maybe this never would have happened. Suddenly, as the memory of the last time she spoke with Andrew, and she realized something. She pulled herself away from Christian warm arms. "I'm sure Ryan told you all about our breakup, but I just need to know why you did that. I mean if it never happened Andrew I wouldn't be broken up." She was realizing these things as she spoke now and her slight smile faded instantly an turned into a look of utter shock and disbelief. "You planned the whole thing didn't you? You got Ryan to do that and then you made sure Andrew jsut happened to walking by at that very moment! And you did it all just so I would give you a chance!" Star standing up and almost yelling now. She was about to keep going when he snapped her out of it and stopped her.
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Post by Christian Lavigne on Sept 13, 2010 20:54:19 GMT -5
Christian stared at her in disbelief. Every time he felt like he had gotten through, there was another thing to be mad at him for. Guess that was just his life. He suddenly felt sad and tired, the way someone would feel after crying a long time over a broken heart. Who's Ryan? He asked, shaking his head and looking at her with sorrow filled eyes.
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Post by Star Night on Sept 13, 2010 21:10:04 GMT -5
Like it wasn't enough to it in the first place, but now he was going to lie? "Who's Ryan? He's the guy you convinced to make me fall for him 'cause he's got somehting about him that doesn't let you walk away and you got him to kiss me and made sure Andrew would walk bye right at that moment so he would break up with me and I'd have to give you a chance because I promised I would! That Ryan! Don't play dumb with me! Ryan told me that you set him up to do that! And i just want to know why you would something like that. Why couldn't you just have gotten along Andrew? He is so sweet and, as hard as it might be to believe, he cared about mt safety more than anything! So please just tell me why?" She looked at him with pleading and accusing eyes.
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Post by Christian Lavigne on Sept 13, 2010 21:18:45 GMT -5
Christian turned away from her, facing forward and putting his elbows on his knees and his head in his hands. He was bouncing his leg up and down, something he did when he was nervous, in pain, or anxious. He shook his head, tangling his fingers in his hair. Why do you do this to me... His voice cracked and his throat felt thick.
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Post by Star Night on Sept 14, 2010 14:26:37 GMT -5
"Me do this to you? You're the one who used Ryan to get Andrew to break up with me!" She realized that was the first time since the breakup that she said he broke up with her, not they broke up. She was begging now. "Please! Just tell me why you did it!" She was afriad she already knew the answer. That he just wanted her to hate Andrew and be with him, but she had to hear him say it.
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Post by Christian Lavigne on Sept 14, 2010 16:50:54 GMT -5
He looked up at her, not believing her words. Look, you know, sometimes, I really wish you DID read my mind. I can't you tell that I really don't know what or who you're talking about? He said desperately, wanting back that moment with her arms around him.
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Post by Star Night on Sept 14, 2010 17:07:35 GMT -5
She had totally forgotten that she could read his mind. He was her best friend so she didn't let herself do that to him, but this was different. She looked him directly in the eyes adn automatically saw hurt and confusion in them. She let her mind soar through his thoughts. They were full of worry and confusion and true feelings for her. She desperately searched for something that would tell her she was right, but found nothing. She looked down, giving up on trying to prove him guilty of something he wasn't. She tried to say "I'm sorry." But the words wouldn't come out. She sighed deeply and couldn't bring herself to look up at him, too embarassed on how wrong she was.
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Post by Christian Lavigne on Sept 14, 2010 17:13:39 GMT -5
Christian stared at her, hurt clouding his eyes. You're always looking for something to accuse me of... Like you're looking for an excuse to not be with me... He said quietly, pain in his voice. He looked away, thinking to himself and watching the kids dance. It was like they were in slow motion, and the music seemed foggy and distant.
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Post by Star Night on Sept 14, 2010 17:24:48 GMT -5
Star forced herself to look at him. "No, I'm not! I just thought-- Ryan told me you put him up to it. I didn't believe him, but he convinced me! I'm sorry, I didn't mean to accuse you. Really! I--" She was so confused right now. She put her elbows on the table and laid her arms across eachother and buried her head in her arms. "I just don't know what to think or who to believe. Everything seems to be all messed up!" Her words were muffled, but she knew he understood.
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Post by Christian Lavigne on Sept 14, 2010 17:35:35 GMT -5
Christian looked away, trying to ignore the way he wanted to go and rip Andrew apart right now. Yeah, I know exactly how you feel. He looked back at her, clenching his fists together. It sucks getting your heart broken, doesn't it? He didn't mean it in a sarcastic or jabbing way, just trying to make her understand how much he had been going through these past few weeks.
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